“I felt amazing knowing that the difficult experiences of the past few months didn’t defeat me. It did in fact make me stronger”
- My reasons for accepting the Lean for Life challenge was to be s support to my daughter Emmy and to get stronger and leaner so I would look great for our family cruise in December.
2. I registered for the challenge on May 15th. Four days later, right after I returned home from my workout in Meridian, my husband of 21 years told me he was leaving me. In that moment and in the days that followed, I felt like I would die. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t breather But I did wake up each morning and go to fitmania. I held planks like my life depended on it. I knew that if I could just keep moving, i would survive and life would go on. Voices in my head screamed that I was a failure, not worth it, not wanted. But I argued back and focused on those signs and told myself “You are stronger that you think you are” and “Staying Strong in the middle is a life skill”. I was determined that no matter what happened, I would emerge from this experience stronger than I was before. I wanted to show my kids that I could rise again.
There were days when I felt sure i wouldn’t make it through the workout. I prayed for strength and felt angels carry me through the last run and touches of the day. I cried most days on the drive home, which provided a great release and a way for me to come through the door and face my kids with a positive attitude. Seeing me continue to exercise just like I always have provided a sort of stability for them and for me. Many days, it was the only thing I did. As the days and weeks and months went by, I wondered if I was making any progress at all. It still felt like such a struggle. I didn’t plan on getting pictures taken, but in the end decided I might as well. I was shocked to find out that I had lost 8 lbs and 7.5” during the challenge. I felt amazing knowing that the difficult experiences of the past few months didn’t defeat me. It did in fact make me stronger. I am more committed than ever to continuing to show up, and I’m confident that if I keep doing that, I will continue to improve in confidence, strength, and fitness.